Lyrics

Self-Titled Long-Playing Debut Album

All I do

All I do
Is think about you.

Crestfallen

Ooh ooh ooh ooh.

The Queen of Detroit

All of a sudden I am flying in a plane
I Beeline to michigan when new york is insane
I realign my head because there’s nothing else to do
I drink coffee to divine why I am so confused

And then I found myself walking with the queen of detroit
An audience with someone whose life I have not destroyed

You’re dealing with a kid that doesn’t have a clue
That chasing you around is not the thing to do

And then I found myself walking with the queen of detroit
An audience with someone whose life I have not destroyed
But give me time and I can mess up anything at all
And I’ll be fine after I take advantage of your fall.

Beverley Road

There’s something I left back there at beverley road
There’s something I missed, sometimes it’s just hard to know
If anything’s left you can assume it’s not mine
There’s just one more thing I don’t want to leave behind

Please don’t let me throw everything away
The salvation army doesn’t bring anything back again

You want to remove every trace I had been
I’ll have one more look before your new life moves on in
If anything’s left you can assume it’s not mine
There’s just one more thing… something I see in your eye

Please don’t let me throw everything away
The salvation army doesn’t bring anything back again
To you.

Manifest Destiny (in general)

I know I said the wrong things to you
And I wish could say I meant to
I wish that I could think of all those
Right things to do but I just don’t

But I know that I was a fool
And you deserve someone new

I know I said the wrong things to you, dear.

The Declaration of Independence

After all the pain is done
She reaches into her nightgown
She curls herself into a ball

She sleeps forever like a bear
Because she knows there’s no one there
To hurry her into the shower again

And you know she’s gonna be alright

She’s on the phone with all her friends
The conversation never ends
She’s got the stories people love to hear
And you know she’s gonna be alright

Cleaning up the house today
She runs across some of his old things
She realizes why it never worked

And you know she’s gonna be just fine
And you know she’s gonna be alright
And you know she’s gonna be just fine
And you know she’s alright.

Setting Your Head on Fire

Halo : everyone you want to know
Solo : everywhere you want to go

Setting your head on fire’s alright
Hope you can put it out in

Time for quality control intake valve or
Filter for the lesser need
System failure in the first degree :
Kissed them - makeshift and economy

Setting your head on fire’s alright
Hope you can put it out in time
Hop on a plane and take a ride
Globally locally inside.

The Industrial Revolution

In my kitchen sink
All I had to drink
Bottles empty
And things I never had In the living room
All I have to do
Television’s fine
If you’ve got the time

If everything around me was indication of me
You’d see nothing here
Just and empty clear head

In my kitchen sink
All I had to drink
Bottles empty
And things I never had

In my double bed
You walk around my head
It’s not very cold
Unless you wake up alone

If everything around me was indication of me
You’d see nothing here
Just and empty clear head.

Yo Yo Yo (please don’t fall in love)

One night stands and cheap perfume
Cosmopolitans and smoky rooms
Don’t fall in love with anyone too soon

They’ve got ideas of what they want you to do
Everything gained and nothing to lose
Don’t fall in love with anyone too soon

Please don’t fall in love.

I Sleep Forever

Hey there don’t you know?
I Sleep Forever
And my endeavors don’t pan out at all
I think you should know just you’re in for

I won’t ever be
The things you want from me
I can try but I know better

In some perfect world
Things could be different and I could change it
Save yourself some grief
You ought to know just what you’re in for

I won’t ever be
The things you want from me
I can try but I know better
I won’t ever be
The things you want from me
It’s not my self esteem
It’s you…

Ill Advised

See how it feels
When it’s all torn adunder
You think I’m stealing thunder
Anxiety
All of these things upset you
What does it really get you?
Do what you need

To make your time all fall back in line
Ill advised
To waste your time wandering around
Ill advised
And you know…

And in the end
There are no guilty pleasures
Walking without a thether
You know it’s true

To waste your time wandering around
Ill advised
To make your time all fall back in line
Ill advised.

The Separation of Church and State

Hey, don’t write me off just yet
I could still be everything that you said
Hey, don’t hang out to dry
I could be superhero material
Secret identity is optional

And how I know is I have such big ideas about my life
And where it’s going
But that’s not really knowing to you

Hey, don’t throw me out to sea
I’m not so good at swimming so nakedly
Without a life preserver, I’ll surely sink
Hey, I’ve got some good years left
I hope someday you’ll truly understand
I could still be everything that you said.

As Seen on Television

All I Ever Knew

Time can stand still inside my funeral home
And the things I do, not set in stone
Oh the bright ideas
In the dark when you feel oh so cold

Breathing in fumes
Embalming while I sew
And her skin looks so pretty down below
Oh the bright ideas
In the dark when you feel oh so cold

Oh I tried to fight
The pull those awful nights
All I ever knew
Don’t regret the things I do
So close your eyes tonight
Everything will work out fine
Yeah, it’ll work out fine

We’ve only got this one moment in time
I’ll let the fluids bring you back to life
Because tonight you’re mine
And I’ll shut your eyes

The stiffness of the skin
Will stretch with the mood I’m in
All I ever knew
Don’t regret the things I do
So close your eyes tonight
Everything will work out fine

It’ll work out fine

It’s all I ever knew
It’s all I ever knew
I don’t regret the things I do
It’s all I ever knew.

Pencil Me In

Ooh ooh ooh ooh pencil me in

Sometime between Sunday and Saturday
Morning or evening
there must be an open appointment you haven’t made

Why can’t you pencil me in
hey babe, pencil me in

Has it occurred to you that I am nothing more
than an appointment you don’t want keep
am I no longer in with your filofax courtesy?

Hey babe, pencil me in
Oh no, pencil me in Come on…

It’s Not What You Think

Two years ago
I lost my home
Stuck down in a hole
Too far from home

I knew you would leave
How could I blame?
It’s not what you think
I won’t complain

Forward march
I’ve got my home
It’s easy.

A Million Pieces on the Ground

At the bottom of your ocean
In the midst the commotion
I was diving in your sea
With a knife in between my teeth

In a barrel over the falls
It occured to me why you jumped
You’re better off where you are
Seems my paddle was your arm

Now I’m sailing through the air
No one has to trust me here
Nothing is a could have been
Nowhere safe for me to land
Now I’m floating back to earth
Hurtling on my return
When my body touches down
A million pieces on the ground.

Holding Patterns

I’ve Been Lost

All of the things that I had planned
On the back burner
Not in hand
If it all fell apart today
What would I have to show for it?

Back in the foreground don’t you see?
Dressed like a stone and constantly
Everything’s coming back to me
Everything’s set for me to be.

Try to understand
I’ve been lost

Ending, beginning
What’s the use?
It doesn’t matter which came first
Standing up straight was never right
Kneeling upright is even worse

Try to understand
I’ve been lost
Not the only one
Ready to come down.

Trapped Under Ice Floes

So stuck inside
No bars are on the windows
try to stem the tide
it’s more than you can swallow

Ice coursing through the veins now
through the arteries
cold from the neck down
your fingers frozen
is that it for you?

Trapped under ice floes
Swimming toward the exit
Up from the cold
So numb you barely felt it

Ice coursing through the veins now
through the arteries
cold from the neck down
your fingers frozen
is that it for you?
All you can do to stop it
Is sink down
and hope that you don’t drown
take a deep breath
and dive right into it

yeah you’re coming down.

Far into the Fields

Day breaking
You’re back into my arms
Arms holding
Patterns straight cross your sky
Say only the words
Then I will run
Far into the fields
And back by your side

Are you there too?

Stay just for a night
And then you go home
Wait for me for years
And then I’ll come home

Are you there too?

You’ve Just Got It All

Although you are so tongue tied
Everything seems to go right
You can never fall
It’s never a question of time
Everything comes around right
You’ve just got it all

Somebody get a snapshot
A balancing act means a lot
As long as you can fall
Cocktails and shots seem so right
They give so much meaning to life
You’ve just got it all

(you feel able, you feel stable, you feel alright)

Somebody call the m.d.
seems like a case of hiding everything that’s wrong
can you envision the time
everything will be alright
you’ll just have it all

on your own
you get that chill and you pick up the phone
you make a call and you hop on the train
small price to pay to ignore all the pain

you can never fall, you’ve just got it all

on your own
you get that chill and you pick up the phone
you make a call and you hop on the train
small price to pay
doesn’t deal with the pain

you can never fall, you’ve just got it all.

Making the Horse Drink

pack your bags
and meet me on a plane that leaves today
waiting for a heart attack
is no reason for you to stay
a still life on your bedroom floor
stripped down to the bone

I’m not dead

So shoot me, I’m no longer scared
Take me out, I’m no longer scared

Timer’s on and going down
You need to leave a trace
A seagull in a parking lot
Too easy to displace
Arms around the state you’re in
It’s the last night of the world

I’m not dead

So shoot me, I’m no longer scared
Take me out, I’m no longer scared

Waiting on you
You say it kills you too
Hollow yourself
Please save what you have left
This face on you
Listless as you’re wont to
Choking on fumes
The sun in an empty room.

You are Here

Ventriloquist

I am riding in a car
please don’t take me back there
don’t want the drive to end

I am riding in a car
please don’t take this exit
and please don’t drop me just yet

there’s a crash up ahead
keep your eyes open
gonna get in your head
gonna get in yours
these ventriloquists.

Surprise!

You hold your hands inside
attached to the hooks and lines
that make the fear subside
but no matter how hard you try
you’re always made of stone
and there will be nothing wrong
yes then you will have it all
until it’s all that you own

oh you’ve got a surprise waiting for you

one day won’t you find
it didn’t just pass with time?
instead there’s a whole lot more
of what you’ve been hiding from
you aim your eyes ahead
staring a thousand yards
you don’t see everything
isn’t really all that far

oh you’ve got a surprise waiting for you.

She’s got your eyes

Yo yo yo don’t you know?
I’m alive with your child
that you won’t see
but she’s still real
now I’ve come back to see you

I’ll find out where you live
and surprise the wife and kids
you owe me something real
because you’ll find
she’s got your eyes

come on now
you know how this came up
now you’re stuck
think of me and where I’ll be
I’ve got ways to make you pay

I’ll find out where you live
and surprise the wife and kids
you owe me something real
because you’ll find
she’s got your eyes.

Summer Dress 1 (All her winter

clothes)

In the morning before he wakes up
she’s collecting her clothes around the bed,
walking tiptoes and fixing her hair
shuts the door and she runs down the stairs

in a summer dress she walks on home
all her winter clothes are gone or sold

there’s no looking back and there’s no fear
there’s no reason for her to believe
that she needs to hang on to her past
it’s so natural just to move on
and he doesn’t know that she’s really

gone into her closet and her drawers
to throw out the things she can’t ignore
in a summer dress she walks on home
all her winter clothes are gone or sold.

Cutting out

I called you on the phone,
you’re cutting out
I can still hear you,
but you’re cutting out
I’m still hanging on
while you’re cutting out
I think you’re breaking up

I didn’t realize what you had said
I only thought the line was going dead

I thought I heard you wrong
you were cutting out
now I know just why
you were cutting out
I tried to call you back
you were cutting out
but you’re already gone

I didn’t realize what you had said
I only thought the line was going dead
everything has already been said
I only thought the line was going dead.

Megalomaniac

Save me I’m down
My story ends
Before it begins
And maybe
When all my sense is gone
I’ll come before you
And so long
Cause I can’t keep my head
From all my stupid musing
Cause any way you turn
There’s someone out for more
If I just take these things with me she will

Breathe and sing along
Should I?

What’s so wrong
With calling for his head
Save for sounding lazy?
Cause any way you turn
There’s someone out for more
If I just take these things with me she will

Breathe and sing along
Should I?

Scarecrow

Get that girl on the phone
if you think she’s all alone
you’re right this time
and every time

get that surgeon on the line
the stitches fade away with time
the suture’s closed
no one will ever know

she seemed so strong with no fears at all
how come no one ever gets through?

scarecrow standing in a field
no one within miles to see
the distance grows
the fire goes cold

now I’m gone
the moment’s gone.

No one sees you like I do

Car parked out in the driveway
I’m here to pay a visit
now I know that you’re alone
I see you in the window
talking with someone on the phone
you’re still in your night clothes

following you to the bedroom
next in your morning schedule
you begin to brush your hair
I love every movement
no one sees you like I do now
nobody ever will

hands tied onto the bedpost
tears falling down from the blindfold
running my hands through your hair
hush now – you won’t feel a thing.

Here we are (again)

Your razor’s on my shelf
a toothbrush by the sink
it’s silly don’t you think
that half of your clothes are here

here you are again with fatalistic view
what are we gonna do?
it’s been so many years…

aren’t you gonna say that you’re taking me away?
instead of waiting every day
paralyzed by fear

in the meantime while you concentrate on you
that’s what you’ve got to do
but don’t ask me for time

oh we’re running out of room now
you take that solo attitude
oh what are we gonna do now?
don’t take that solo attitude

I gotta say it seems you’re pushing me away
I thought you wanted it this way
well I did
now I want more

for the last time just tell me yes or no
and then finally I’ll know
but don’t ask me for time

oh we’re running out of room now
you take that solo attitude
oh what are we gonna do now?
don’t take that solo attitude

I want to see you aiming for the things
the things I want too
I want to see you think of me for real
is that so hard to do?

oh we’re running out of room now
you take that solo attitude
oh what are we gonna do now?
don’t take that solo attitude

you take that solo attitude -
don’t take that solo attitude.

Everything I see makes it feel wrong

Now the ground is clear of snow
the bees buzzing around the rose
and the clouds all in a row
but you’re still gone

and the ice is off the trees
the sun is shining through the leaves
but the only thing I see
is that you’re gone

and everything I see makes it feel wrong

and I think I’m sinking fast
to the bottom of a glass
and I know I’ll lose my mind
it’s the only thing that lets me forget
that you’re gone

and sometimes it’s hard to breathe
when I shut my eyes I see
all the things I should have seen
had I known

and now everything I see makes it feel wrong

and I think I’m sinking fast
to the bottom of a glass
and I know I’ll lose my mind
it’s the only thing that lets me forget
that you’ve gone

and I know I’m sinking fast
to the bottom of a glass
it’s the only thing I can find
that can put you out of mind
now that you’ve gone.

Walk in a Straight Line

In a peculair way
I think I might stay
attached to you
When I come around
I won’t make a sound
for you

all my ideas
are premised on the truth
that it was you
who loved me

I’ll walk in a straight line
and so you might find
it’s really true
if I steal away
then I’ll hear you say
all I need

all my ideas
are premised on the truth
that it was you
who loved me.

Chromatic

Picket fences, children in the yard
double barrel shotgun in the hall
hiding behind gates and urban sprawl
20 miles north of anyone who can do us harm

supermarket cafeterias
one hour photo portraits at the mall

are you safe? well yes!
you’ve still got a gun
ain’t it simple?
paint by numbers
what could ever go wrong

follow in the path of your old man
family business needs a family man

are you safe? well yes!
you’ve still got a gun
ain’t it simple?
paint by numbers
what could ever go wrong?

Let’s Build a Fire

Let’s Build a Fire

Maybe it’s better if I stop focusing
on all of the problems that reignite the fear
So this is the last time you’ll see me disappear
I won’t be withdrawing from

attempts to look within
don’t know where to begin
‘cause I put up the walls
and shut myself again

All of this has got to go

So let’s build a fire to burn away the past
Don’t be sentimental
our time is fading fast
Roll out the bulldozers
to raze the structures that
keep us sheltered from the honest

attempts to look within
don’t know where to begin
‘cause I put up the walls
and shut myself again

All of this has got to go

So bring the house down
and let’s begin again.

Fadeout

Take no solace in my sense of what to do
My eyes are closed
and I’ve got no blindfold
Still I’m driving you home

Take the time you will see
everybody knows what’s been going on

Mainline
Fadeout
Heartache
don’t know what to do
I look for something more
A bad taste
Still I’m driving you home

Take the time you will see
everybody knows what’s been going on
No heartache
Figure out what’s the deal
Everybody knows what is going on

Break out
Do it now
Don’t wait for a sense of what to do
You never know unless you do
No blindfold
Still I’m driving you home

Take the time you will see
everybody knows what’s been going on
No heartache
Figure out what’s the deal
Everybody knows what is going on

Steal the Blueprints

Hey
I never thought I’d find
under layers of regret
a recognition of the time
before the boundaries were set
when the pages were left blank
the gold still buried in the soil
and you could make a lot of noise
with no connection to the past

Do you wonder just what happened to
all the desire to carry on
without knowing where you’re going?

Now it’s flavor of the month
with all the expectations met
Before they strike a single chord
you can predict what you will get

Hey
Steal the blueprints and the maps
stamp the spade into the ground
strip the gold under the soil
then stake a claim to the sound.

Do you wonder just what happened to
all the desire to carry on
without knowing where you’re going?

The Important Thing is to Love

Hey I am shutting down
Think they got me good
When they lulled me to sleep
Never mind that I sow and they reap

But hey I can wipe it all
Erase everything
Just by holding delete
Till I find something good

Hey I’ve become undone
I misunderstood
Talk like I’m on TV
Where’s my mind?  Heaven knows who I’ve been

So hey I’ll be coming down
Hard on everything
I‘ve been led to believe
Hope I find something good

I used to be so full of love
The important thing is to love.

Summer Dress 2 (Iodine)

She’s telling herself
“He won’t be the same as when I left him”
The ring’s still on the shelf
“I know that he’s learned just how to treat me”

“Iodine
treats me fine
cleans away
the memories of all the times I wanted to leave”

Blue summer dress
ribbons in her hair ‘cause that’s his favorite
he said he was wrong
it’s so hard for him to say he’s sorry

“Iodine
treats me fine
cleans away
the memories of all the times I wanted to leave”
“He won’t be the same as when I left him”
“I know that he’s learned just how to treat me”

“Iodine
treats me fine
cleans away
the memories

And one day, I’ll throw the bottle away.”

Ignoring All the Detours

It feels like looking in from the outside
and if you squint right, things look like they’re alright
but oh how wrong we were
we never thought it could get worse

And I tried to look ahead
I would have followed you anywhere anyway
blind to the signs
And oh I guess should have known
I got caught ignoring all the detours
that were holding us back (and forth)

And sometimes you get the instant reply
and all the while you miss the real meaning
but oh how wrong we were
we never saw it getting worse.

Profession

I must profess
That I cannot acquiesce
‘Cause when I lay me down to sleep
My soul is mine to keep

But you won’t have me
Hell is where I’ll be
Alone
Alone
You’re onto me

Won’t you please condone?
Without you I can atone
And if I die before I wake
My soul’s not yours to take

And you won’t have me
Hell is where I’ll be
Oh no
Oh no
I’m onto you.

One Day You’ll Be There

You’re sailing through the air to nowhere
the trajectory unclear
but it feels like it’s somewhere
don’t really care if you land or you fall
because it’s not up to you
don’t you know that it should be?

Sign on the dotted line for an unlimited time
but you still won’t know

You feel a hundred feet tall
you see all the things that you could do
but they’re not what you’re doing
Everyone knows where you stand
but you can never see it for yourself
Don’t you know that you should be?

Sign on the dotted line for an unlimited time
but you still won’t know.

This is All (I Have Left)

A lipstick stain on a mug
a novel that was barely read
those dresses hanging in the hall
and letters filling my dresser drawer

This is all I have left

A message on the telephone
an empty seat in the car
a loss for any words to speak
the pain that’s flooding into the heart

This is all I have left

Your ring is shining in my eyes
a mute reminder of your hand
holding onto the last thread
of all the things we never said

All those years to lament
all those times to forget
This is all I have left.

Leap Year

She says, “Here is someday. We’ll find some way.”
Nothing’s put upon me

Search lights, helicopters
Sound the all clear
Someone’s pulling me in

She smiles and I leave my feet
She tries to bring the world out of sleep

All my indecision
Lacking vision
She holds a skeleton key

Leap year in our own way
Armistice Day
She is everything

She smiles and I leave my feet
She tries to bring the world out of sleep

Everything
She said, “Here is someday. We’ll find some way.”
And pulled me in.

Time and Space

There’s something to be said for waiting
despite the knowledge it’ll never come
In the face of doubt
learn to go without
and within

And there’s something to be said for action
to see the consequences get played out
In the end you find
you’ve run out of time and space in your heart

OK
Alright
You’re OK
but it’s not fine

And now you’re coming round the corner again
and you’re leaving everything behind
Out of sight
out of mind
You’ve run out of time and space in your heart

OK
Alright
You’re OK
but it’s not fine

Where did you go to?
Nothing left to hold onto
Can you just close up?
Can you just give up?

For You

Sunlight in the hall
Slips between the cracks in the floorboards
Where I’ve settled in
Buried deep in your torrent of memories flooding in

So now you give up
Watch you sink into some great oblivion
No hands on the wheel
Lights off and the static of a.m. coming in

You don’t want to be
Somewhere in between
Before you begin to fall into
Some silly suicide play
Throwing all of it away

Sunlight in the hall
Slips between the cracks in the floorboards
Where I’ve settled in
Buried deep in your torrent of memories flooding in

Camouflage Fades into Trust

If you were still here
we’d fade into one
and the camouflage would fade into trust
and there’d be no more wanderlust

If I could have known
what’s obvious now
all my regrets would erase the doubts
It’d all come down to here and now
and nothing more

The final scene fades to black
Apologies only lack
and you won’t see it crumble to dust
as the camouflage fades into trust

At the end of the day
the sun disappears
shadows grow long and fade into fear
and I’ll be in the dark again
and nothing more

The final scene fades to black
Apologies only lack
and you won’t see it crumble to dust
as the camouflage fades into trust.

Forward March

(instrumental)

Hellkite

Waiting for a sign that you’re not really
Supposed to wake up
Find we’ve been dreaming
All of this time

Anti-depressant ads list all your symptoms
But claim to not know what makes you feel them
Though it’s rather sad
You have to laugh

It’s so hard to reach you
As subtle as a tele-preacher
In a whore house
Just thought you should know

It’s clear it’s by design
Though you’re not nearly as clever
As time exposes these things
You should have known

But I don’t place the blame on you
Or your ill-fated venture to save the day

It’s so hard to reach you
As subtle as a tele-preacher
In a whore house
Just thought you should know

Waiting for a sign that you’re not really
Supposed to wake up
Find we’ve been dreaming
All of this time

It’s so hard to reach you
Nothing I try ever seems to
Just thought you should know.

Xs on your Eyes

Tired Eyes

Spinning out of control
Sailing off the tracks
Knuckles white on the wheel
Yet there’s nothing to grasp

All for the sake of tired eyes
Ripped down the seams on the ride

Choking down the dust
Coughing up the debris
Arms outstretched to the sun
All but poised to break free

All for the sake of tired eyes
Ripped down the seams on the ride

And there’s no
Illusion
It’s hollowing the tree to escape
On board the
Delusion

All for the sake of tired eyes
Ripped down the seams on the ride In the desert a thirst
Dries the skin like a drum
Though the spirit is low
Arms outstretched to the sun

And there’s no
Illusion
Hollowing the tree to escape
On board the
Delusion
Borrowing the arrows to break
Open
The doors and
Paddling away on the wake
You make for the shoreline and fly.

Snowblind

All the things that upset you
Swirling round and round
In your head
It’s up
And down

It’s enough to fill the oceans
This uncertainty
Expectant doubt
You can’t reroute

And all the things that direct you
Couldn’t find their mark
And it seems a near miss hits you
Harder than it feels

And all the things that get you
Worked into frenzy
It just seems there is no way to
Draw the poison out.

And in the space of a lifetime
Scratching at the walls of hidden cells
Of where no one can
Tell that it’s you

Taking in the delusion
Oh what scenery the lies can make
Never seems to
Cause the dam to break.

All the things that upset you
Overwhelming everything you see
You are snow blind
In a sand storm haze

There’s nothing to connect to
It all descends on you
And you are an empty frame.

With all the things that upset you
Swirling round and round
It seems there is no way to
Draw the poison out.

Subdued

Wake up with a scream trapped in my throat again
Call the airway team
Take some TNT and blow up the dam in me
Make the river punch through

Subdued

Bell-mouth spillways (to maintain integrity)
Silence the song in you
Flow rate: an easy stream (so fuse plugs don’t wash away)
Slowly eroding you

Subdued

The Queen of Nothing

There’s a pull from beneath
Wooden floors and salty seas
In the fields beneath the snow
Monuments to letting go

All the gold buried down
Deep below a dusty crown of what you sow

Drifting through across the sand
Hands dug down beneath the earth
Pockets full of diamonds and
Treasures you do not deserve

All the gold buried down
Deep below a dusty crown of what you sow

I don’t mind

‘cause I won’t be on my knees
Lifting flowers to the trees
Holding fast to the sound
Of my heart tearing apart

There’s a killer on the run
Folding hands beneath the sun
Come this way no don’t be long
The queen of nothing won’t step down

All the gold buried down
Deep below a dusty crown of what you sow

I don’t mind

‘cause I won’t be on my knees
Lifting flowers to the trees
Holding fast to the sound
Of my heart tearing apart

Don’t you know your reign is done
So step down from your throne
Queen of all became none,
Subjects gone my heart won’t be the one

Halos

Stay within the lines and wait
Taking what you need no more
Aiming for the greater good
You know to never stray

Ooh
You’re taking it all with you now
You’re making a hole in the floor Take a set of wings and fly

Today a picture of remorse
No the past is not on time
You know you never found out

Ooh
You’re taking it all with you now
You’re making a hole in the floor
You’re pounding a nail in the heart
You bury the heart in the ground

Alright
Seems like
That’s all

Unsung

In a car
Bathed in the sunlight
You were going to speed away
From the city life
Choking down one last breath
You turn around

Oh no
Where did you go?
All within your eyes

Down the road
Pull to the shoulder
Nothing seems right
When there’s no
Joy in the ride
Choking down one last breath
You turn around

Oh no
Where did you go?
Your song is unsung

Out the door
Onto the freeway
Comes the last idea
Now ‘cause the moment’s gone
On your feet
Count to ten
And then you bound

Oh no
Where did you go?
Your song is unsung.

The Hours You Keep

Wait to sleep
I’ll be awake
The hours you keep
Give you away

Out of it all
You could be wrong
Stay out today
Down to the sea

World asleep
I’m still awake
On my t.v.
A blowhard disgrace

Step out from it all
You could be wrong
Is every heart
Down in a heap?

After it all
You still belong
Day after day
Don’t change a thing

Marina

Marina won’t you come back around?
Where’d you go to since I saw you last?
Was walking up and down the isle
‘gonna keep you when you’re pulled by the tide

One foot in the sand
The other in the sea
Did you dive until
You didn’t have to breathe?
Lost beneath the waves
Where I can’t call your name
I’m washed up on the beach

One foot in the sand
The other in the sea
Did you dive until
You didn’t have to breathe?
Lost beneath the waves
Where I can’t call your name
I’m seasick on the beach

Marina won’t you come back around?
I’ll wait here ‘til the moon goes down
I thought I saw you floating away
I guess I should have known you couldn’t stay One foot in the sand
The other in the sea

Did you dive until
You didn’t have to breathe?
Lost beneath the waves
Where I can’t call your name
I’m washed up on the beach

You’ll Catch Your Death

Past the yellow tape lines
In the hall
Is a single chalk outline
Where I heard you fall

Coded in the message
On the table
Always second guessing
What you had meant to say

Turn down the lights
Close your eyes
Slip away

You’re drowning inside
While learning to fly
Succumb to the cold
You’ll catch your death
Fall through the end
With nothing to hide
No leading the blind
And fading to black
Won’t bring you back

Catalog what’s hidden
In the lines
Piece together visions
Of why you tried

Turn down the lights
Close your eyes
Slip away

Xs on Your Eyes

Over the railway bridge
Kicking off the Sunday best
Fist full of the sleeping pills
Missing the entire mess

Speeding by a van
Parked outside the house
Breaking through the door
To find you there but inside out

In a darkened room,
Clutching for the switch
Eyes are closed and waiting for
The light to shine on

You took a breath and it held onto
All the blood flow through your skin
You wanted just to push it out
You had no reasons to hold out

Xs on your eyes
Blanked out from the bliss
One step from the bathroom door
And two from the abyss

There was no one there
It seemed there never was
Waited for a lifetime ‘til
The light could shine on

You took a breath and it held onto
All the blood flow through your skin
You wanted just to push it out
You had no reasons to hold out

All the things that you never had before
No one gave to you things you needed more
In a faded room passed out on the floor
Finally you saw the light

You took a breath and it held onto
All the blood flow through your skin
You wanted just to push it out
You had no reasons to hold out

You took a breath and it held onto
Venom from the inside out
You wanted just to keep it in
You in the dark with no way out.

Flight Data Recorder

Inside voices please
I was a child
They built this monster
With their own regrets

A vacuum-like machine
That spins! And drills your head in!
Tower? Please come in Do you read me?

All the time you have
Won’t come back to you
All the time you spend postponed

Centers for disease control
Stop the bleeding
In the end
The king and pawn
Go in the same box

All the time you spend
Won’t come back to you
When all the lies descend
And lie undressed for you

With all the time you have
There’s nothing else to lose
When all the time you spend
Won’t come back to you

All the time you have
Won’t come back to you

Reeling in the Years

Straight from your heart
So much confusion
A shot across the bow
And hurried decision

You never got it
You never got it down

In the time since
You thought about it
Nothing’s changed much
Except you submitted

To
All the fears that were passed down to you
And
You’ll be reeling in the years to come

You never got it You never got it down

And on the eve
Of the committed
Still unsure of
Why you submitted

To
All the fears that were passed down to you
So
You’ll be reeling in the years to come
And
There is no way to prevent the flood
While
You insist on trying to chase the sun

You never got it
You never got it down

Pulled Punches

She’s So Lost

With all the things I know
I never would have guessed
that when you let down your hair
it is your last defense

You walk around and never give them any chance
chance to see you alone and your ugly inside

When someone falls for you
do you know how they feel?
When they’re waving white flags in the fields
what do you see?

One day I’ll call you up
and you’ll rush to the phone
and I’ll hear you alone
and you’re ugly inside

Take a walk around the lake
let your hair blow in the wind
cuz all you ever need to do
is notice things other than you

Taste the coffee without cream
drive your car at breakneck speed
cuz all you ever need to do
is notice things other than you.

Back and Forth

I want to make it so the action matters
I want to realize the consequences
I want to move in the right direction
I want to make all the right decisions

I want a correlating interaction
I want a first hand look at your reaction
I want to be an optimistic person
I want to pick up where the last time I reversed

So let’s go!

If I Am Charming

Hey there honey pie
I’m begging, baby, please
For you to notice me
And be free of disease

If I am charming
Will you take me home tonight?
I promise that I’ll leave
Before you turn out the light I look to you
To validate my life
You are the cutest thing
in THIS bar tonight

How many drinks will I have to buy
to figure out I’m not that kind of guy?

Do you ever feel
like you’re life is dictated by impossible ideals?
Do you ever find
You left the important things behind?

Jumping the Tracks

Young Once

How can you not see you’re gone?
Like all the dead leaves when fall comes
Why should you believe me now?
When you’re running in circles crusading and fleeing love

You were the young once
Love devotees on trampolines

You’re coming on denouement
Nothing but deceit in your heart
You’ll be sadly the slated as no hope from C.P.R.
Sadly the slated as no hope from C.P.R.

But you were the young once
Love devotees on trampolines

The Bitterest Pill

Swallowed down
The bitterest pill around,
Dissolving into the veins and the heart can’t be rid of it now,
And it does no good
Even when it’s understood,
It will remain and there isn’t a way to get it all out

Every single breath
Making you more upset,
Shutting it down is the way that you’ve found to prolong this slow death,
And it does no good
Even when it’s understood,
It still remains and there isn’t a way to get it all out,

Footprints we left in the sand
They just faded away too soon,
Don’t know if you ever think about it
But it’s all I do.

Time grows long
Somehow you don’t move on,
Cold is the comfort of knowing exactly what’s going wrong,
And it does no good
Even when it’s understood,
Always the same you can’t think of a way to get it all out,

All of the things that we had
They just faded away too soon,
Don’t’ know if you ever think about it
But it’s all I do.
Resigned to defeat,
So we’re doomed to repeat,
What we’re going through,
Don’t know if you ever think about it
But it’s

All the venom that is spit off-handedly,
A poison seeping slowly into the heart,
And it’s overwhelming everything around us,
Sets the teeth on edge as it slowly tears us apart,

I thought you should know.

All of the things that we had
They just faded away too soon,
Don’t’ know if you ever think about it
But it’s all I do.
We’re always stuck in the same old story, We don’t pull through.
Don’t’ know if you ever think about it
But it’s all I do.

Toe the Line

You never sway in the windy night
You never sink in the rolling tide
But now you’re drowning alone again,
Uncomfortable in your own skin

So you put it under lock and key
Using silence so accusingly
And you’re lying in a separate bed,
With insomnia instead of me,

(All you say that you want.)

Here we are after all these days,
And it’s life that we while away,
(All you say that you want.)
Just a glance when we pass in the hall,
We never break through the silence at all,
(Have you got everything you want?)

And now it’s normal so there’s nothing to do,
Just gotta try hard to make it through
(All you say that you want.)
And I’m lying in a separate bed,
With insomnia instead of you,
(Is it all you need?)

What do you do when it fades to nothing?
You’re getting sore from sitting tight.
Do you wait for another connection?
It starts to kill you just to toe the line.
It’s gonna kill you just to toe the line.

The Space Between Us

We knock on doors,
When no one’s home,
No cars and the yard is overgrown,

So we break in,
Out of the cold,
Desperate for warmth in the unknown,

And all those times rushing by,
From here to infinity,

Swept out into the night,
And they never come back again,

Take up arms choose your sides,
We had this feeling years ago,

No way across the divide,
It’s only space between us now.

And now it’s gone,
Away from here,
Lost and found, in faded years.

What Lies Ahead

She floats away now
She’s down to bed
Wish I could keep you
From the lies ahead

Just mind your head
Please don’t forget
To shine light ahead
On the lies ahead

What lies ahead
What lies ahead
The lies ahead
Use light instead

Exorcising Your Ghost

In the night listening to you exhale,
Lying beside you satisfied,

It’s a dream
I’m trapped and there’s no way out,
Lost within endless doubt,
So lost,

And there’s no point to get out,
Nothing gained, going without,
And I’m still waiting for the day when
I wake up and I’m living.

Yeah I know,
That’s what kills me the most:
Exorcising your ghost for good

And there’s no point to set out,
Nothing gained, going without,
And I’m still waiting for the day when
I wake up and I’m living.

And so what does it get you
When you take away everything and you’re left alone?

Would it kill you
If you were to make believe that you could still feel love?

Would it upset you?
If I take away everything and it’s set in stone?

Would it kill you?
If you were to make believe that you could still be loved?

Rewrite the Story

So far,
Gliding along without intention,

Long gone,
Blown by the breeze,
Fields will lie fallow

Oh you don’t pay attention,
That’s how you end up beat down,
Sands slipping through,
Waiting forever,

Don’t mind years passing by No time to notice

And find You don’t know how to rewrite the story

Oh you don’t pay attention,
That’s how you end up beat down,

Floating away in space,
No longer out of place,
No longer feel the pull,
Vanish without a trace,

And now it’s set ablaze,
Nothing to hold you,

Downwind,
The first place you land won’t be the last one

Oh you don’t pay attention
To what you commit to,
Tied down,
Frozen by fear,
Waiting forever.

There Goes My Love

Hate comes after denial
And slowly eats into your head
And you lose blood in your veins
You’re running out of love

It’s so long and you’re done
It’s so long now you’ve gone
Right back out in two

There goes my love
You know it couldn’t wait
Take everything when you leave now Broken by love I know you couldn’t wait
Make believe it’s ok now

I hate I fell for you
I doubt you ever knew
That I could feel
Up and down your spine
When all of your measured love withdrew

It’s so long and you’re done
It’s so long now you’ve gone
Right back out in two

There goes my love
You know it couldn’t wait
Take everything when you leave now Broken by love I know you couldn’t wait
Make believe it’s ok now

Yeah it’s a light
A light inside the walls surrounding you

Running the Distance

Looking afield for reasons to let go,
Alone at the wheel,
Distance yourself from me,

Caught in the breeze, a kite in a tree,
Unable to leave,
Tangled up all the while,

All the stars are gone,
You waited all night long but you don’t see anything

Running the distance,
I’m never able to keep stride,

Left it for dead,
Buried at sea,
Spiraling down,
A ship run aground in the tide,

Caught in the breeze,
A kite in a tree,
Unable to leave,
Tangled up all the while,

All the stars are gone,
You waited all night long but you don’t see anything, That’s no lazy eye,
Looking for the reasons why we lost everything

Running the distance
I’m never able to keep stride.

No one can touch you now

Running through your disappearing act,
Somehow I feel I have to persist,
In bringing all the history back,
You make sure I no longer exist,

Where’d you go to?
No one can touch you now.

Silence is the natural refrain,
It’s the only possible response,
Frozen from that ice in your veins,
That you refuse to ever let defrost,

Where’d you go to?
No one can touch you now.

All you withdrew,
All you don’t have now.

Jumping the Tracks

Hey,
Should we take a holiday
From being blown away?
Cuz it’s always too late to start,
When you feel you’ll be torn apart,
Yeah you know we’ll be torn apart,

So we stand our ground and wait,
For the apathy to take,
One more day to feel less alive,
Statuesque and crumbling inside,
Yeah you know so gone all the while,

Hey,
Gonna hide that heart away,
(all the way to the end)
Cuz we need that holiday,
Don’t you feel we’re not coming back?
(all the way to the end)
Once we’re gone there’s no coming back,
Yeah you know we’re jumping the tracks.

We’re colliding yet we’re splitting in two,
But we’re so numb we don’t feel what to do,
No way to keep us on.

Wait,
Don’t you take that all away,
Like you’ll never be OK,
Cuz it’s too late to get it back,
Once we’re gone there’s no coming back,
Oh you know we’re jumping the tracks.

We’re colliding yet we’re splitting in two,
But we’re so numb we don’t feel what to do,
No way to keep us on,
And we’re slowly fading into the blue,
But we’re so numb we don’t feel what to do,
No way to keep us on.

I’m A Little Teapot (Bonus)

Lately I’ve been a cauldron
You should leave when all of the steam builds
And my lid goes flying off When it rains down on us

Laying under shady tree
Should calm your frayed nerves
But it creeps into each of your veins
And all of your blood begins to boil

Then it’s raining on us
Boiling rain down on us
Acrid rain on us
Leaves a stain on us

Lately I’ve been a cauldron
Slowing stewing on low

Summer 2019 : Extended Play

You Are One

You’re waiting forever
It’s not gonna find you
And all your obsessions
Are not gonna blind you

You are one
When you are gone
You are gone
When you are one

Driving Aimlessly

You don’t know me
From a hole in the wall
Let’s make some noise ‘til
They break down the door
You belong here with me
We’ll be lost and innocent
Could never see you alone

Say you want me
Sitting shotgun we’ll go
Driving aimlessly
While it’s twenty below
And we’ll be lost in the waves
We’ll be lost and innocent
Could never see alone

Am I too late
Our hearts awake
When you wait
You sink down

Don’t let me down
In your heart

Drawn Into the Sun

Open up and step inside
to never realize
Everything that was dragging you down
Can’t leave it all behind

Free to roam out on your own
And never breaking stride
A prisoner behind your eyes
Even though they’re open wide

You were drawn into the sun
Just a ghost inside
Never cast aside
Calling out to everyone
You were lost to time
In the blink of an eye

Wading through the rolling waves
And never breaking stride
Feel the pull into the sea
And leave it all behind

You were drawn into the sun
Just a ghost inside
Never cast aside
Calling out to everyone
You were lost to time
In the blink of an eye

Sugarcane (Redux)

You call for me now
I’m on standby
I’ll stay in line
My eyes are blind

And you knew you’d cause a landslide
For your sugarcane
Yeah you knew you’d cause a landslide
For your sugarcane

Safe Harbor

You were walking down the street from side to side
Looking out for shooting stars to catch your eye
And the only thing you seem to see
Always fading out of view

A map drawn out to show where water flows
And everything seems overexposed
And the only thing you seem to feel
Is you don’t know what to do

There’s an island somewhere down beneath the clouds
Safe harbor in the fog if you come down
But the only thing that seems quite real
Always fading out of view

Flying blind
No map to reference how
Oh why don’t you come down
And interrupt my train of thought
Don’t you see
The curtain’s been undrawn
Oh why don’t you come down
And interrupt my train of thought

Further Afield

Borrowed Time

Earlier on we jump in side by side
A common mission keeps us unified

Years of dissatisfaction magnified
By steady disaffection in our lives

It’s all on Borrowed time
It’s all wrong again

Driving us to distraction
Feel maligned
Unable to take action
Undermined

It’s all on Borrowed time
It’s all wrong
Until we try
It’s all wrong again

Gondolier

I don’t mind if you go
It’s been a good while
And stasis only drags you down
And I won’t mind if you come back around
I will wait for you
I will leave the light on

and get you on your own

I don’t mind if you say
You’ve had enough of that
At least you’re coming out of it
And I won’t mind if you’re flailing around
I will wait for you
I will leave the light on

To get you on your own

There’s a cold wind blowing through your hair ( down the track )
When you take initial steps anywhere ( don’t look back )
No one’s brushing rocks toward the sides
Without them, the path is too open wide

So let’s raise a glass to when you’ve gone
And hope that you’ve got what you need to get on
Just remember when you’re wrestling with doubt
That the light will never die out

In the distance we will see
You’re holding onto me
But the story still unfolds

‘Cuz I’ve journeyed through the years
to meet the gondolier
I hope you can let go

I was waiting there for you
Even though I could not follow
And you’ll know just what to do
Even when I cannot follow

Driving Aimlessly (Redux)

You don’t know me
From a hole in the wall
Let’s make some noise ‘til
They break down the door
You belong here with me
We’ll be lost and innocent
Could never see you alone

Say you want me
Sitting shotgun we’ll go
Driving aimlessly
While it’s twenty below
And we’ll be lost in the waves
We’ll be lost and innocent
Could never see you alone

Am I too late?
Our hearts awake
When you wait
You sink down

Where I Hope We Get Lost

When we were
We were so young
A long way
So much undone

Will you wait
When I can’t go on
And on the way
When plans go wrong

Our fingers
Tracing birthmarks
A hedge maze
Where I hope we get lost

You wait when I can’t go on
While we sink I can’t let on
You wait when I can’t go on
And on the way my hands holding on

The Pull From Both Sides

Burning down
A home completely to the ground
Beneath the charred remains
Will you be alright?

All the fire
Is channeled to a future life
We chase away the time
And hope it’s alright

Breaking free
Unraveling the knot to see
you’re stretched out in between
The pull from both sides

Heed both calls
But never realize it’s wrong
We chase away the time
And hope it’s alright

And I will try to be all that you need
And I will fight hard to be where you are

Calling Off the Rescue

A flicker in the wick
We know how this one ends
This sturdy house of cards
Comes crashing down on them

A flicker in the wick
We couldn’t feel a thing
Stumble in the dark
Heart under your sleeve
We hear our moving lips
But no one sees you speak
Confessing all my love
While you were fast asleep

Calling off the rescue
While we’re still lost
They’re calling off the rescue
While we’re still lost
Calling off the rescue
While we’re still lost

Contempt

When we cross to the other side
Feel secure that the knot is tied
and we’re still aligned

Always ever after

Shelter from the bitter storm
Insulation from the cold
Keeps the welcome warm

Always ever after

And we’re adding fuel to the fire
The embers glowing with a spark
The concerns are wholly justified
We misjudge the distance in the dark

Seems as if we’ve lost control
And contempt has taken hold
But we never know

Always ever after

Grasping for a final chance
Without fear of reprimand
Before we let it go

Always ever after

And we’re adding fuel to the fire
The embers glowing with a spark
The concerns are wholly justified
We misjudge the distance in the dark

So we’re adding fuel to the fire
The embers glowing with a spark
The concerns are wholly justified
Can’t judge the distance in the dark

And we never know
What will take hold

Redrawn

We’re further afield than we had imagined
No sense of direction and we lost our bearings

Didn’t realize we got turned around

We can’t perceive how far we have drifted
It’s never a straight line the compass is spinning

Didn’t realize we got turned around
Can we save ourselves by running aground

And all the things we said
Begin to lose meaning
When all we need to do
Is forgotten so quickly

We’re following maps that are being redrawn
Every detour pulling us farther

Didn’t realize we got turned around
Can we save ourselves by running aground

And all the things we said
Begin to lose meaning
When all we need to do
Is forgotten so quickly

No wonder we’ve drifted so far
No wonder we end up off course
Can we navigate by stars
When we don’t know where we are

Is It Over Now

Was it overhead or an undertow?
If you see me flinch get out your phone
Fall into the fog of faceless liaisons
Where no one ever hears I was wrong

All this is to say our so longs
And sing is it over now?
Over now
Is it over now
Over now
Is it over now
Over now
Is it over now
It’s over now